Ok so Monday I told you a terrifying and embarrassing story of my kinda first kiss. Today prepare yourself for the uncomfortable story of my actual first kiss.
Do you ever look back at awkward events and replay it your head and feel just as weird and awkward as when it happened because it was just that awkward the first time around? I hope that's not just me. But that's how this story makes me feel.
Ok this one took place in Virginia Beach Virginia. We moved there after Oregon. I was attending Independence Middle school and in the 8th grade.
I had a "boyfriend" named Beau. (Yup Beau, if you knew me in middle school and are now laughing that Beau was my first kiss I'm laughing with you) And let's be honest about what a "boyfriend" was in middle school. We liked each other and enjoyed each others company. We passed notes in class, sat together at lunch, and he walked me to the bus after school. Oh the simplicity of a middle school relationship. Anyways we started "dated" during the beginning of the school year and actually a good portion of that school year. I liked him a lot. He made me laugh and he's was short and so was I.
{insert awkward throw back photo here}
Please take note at how large that camera is that I'm holding..
At this time I had another Latina best friend named Karen. Karen had as much personality as my old friend Selena but not nearly as pushy and more supportive. Karen was dating Justin, Beaus best friend. It was the ideal situation, the 4 of us were together as much as we could be in school.
Ok let's get to this awkward kiss. I don't know when Justin and Karen first kissed but when they did there was a serious pressure on me and Beau to do the same. Though I really liked him, I wasn't ready. I would tell Karen I was scared and I wasn't ready but I mean based on my last post I had every reason to be. (I still hadn't tried lipstick out again if you were wondering)
Karen never made me feel like I had to until I showed some interest in doing it. Then it was Selena all over again and I had to. But she was encouraging not forceful. We had a few conversations on kissing before the act. She made it look and seem effortless and no big deal.
Beau, probably feeling the pressure from Justin had already tried to kiss me a couple times.. So awkward! We would walk to the buses and hug but all of the sudden he tried to go in for a kiss. Every time he did I had to pull the head jerk back move or the I gotta go catch my bus in a hurry push away move. I had some friends on my bus. One in-particular a boy named Gabby. He would ask about Beau and make fun of him and when the kiss dodging started he made fun of me for not doing it. Later to only learn he made fun of me because he liked me. Oh boys, so predictable yet so confusing.
Between Karen, Gabby and my own curiosity I decided I was going to do it. I sternly told Gabby to shut up because I was doing it. I told Karen Id report to her after. I was going to show them all! I don't know what I had to prove? And so one faithful day after school me and Beau started the walk to the buses. This memory is in slow motion in my head I think because I replayed it so many times. We walked hand in hand even though my palms were sweaty from nerves. He turned to face me to hug me and we hugged and we leaned in to kiss, my lips puckered for my first kiss, only to be surprised by my lips in his mouth.
His mouth was open..
What?!? That's not what it looked like in movies!? Why was his mouth open? Wide open! I was so utterly confused and grossed out and what?! What just happened? I thought to myself if this is what kissing is like I'm done with it. First Tyler and the lipstick and now Beau with his open mouth. Kissing no longer held any kind of appeal to me. It was all horrifying and gross. Ugh! Just imagine going for a peck and then immediately feeling like your face is in the processes of being swallowed. I told Gabby he laughed and I told Karen she laughed too but was also confused. I showed them ha! It was so awkward and confusing. Even typing this I feel so awkward and ugh. Me and Beau eventually got it right after I took a break from kissing. However we ended up breaking up that year.
So Morals to this story? I'm glad you asked.
Moral #1: Don't kiss with your mouth wide open.
Moral #2: Don't kiss for others satisfaction
Moral #3: Don't one up your other couple friends
Moral #4: Boys are gross
Moral #5: This awkward story was just precursor to my life that was one awkward event after another. So when you're feeling down or awkward just remember my first kiss involved my face almost getting swallowed.
Well I hope you enjoyed this embarrassing story or at minimum made you feel better about yourself or your first kiss. Was your first kiss as awkward as mine? Was it romantic unlike mine? Let me know!
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